I know when stuff like this happens, all the hugs in the world can't help...but, *hug* I know how this feels.
And the not recognizing until your in it makes perfect sense to me. I was in that kinda limbo stage for a good couple months. And down deeper a couple days. IT sounds silly because you kinda know that you're being silly, things aren't this bad...but it doesn't matter, because everything just kinda feels surreal. It's like you're just goign through the motions...but at the same time you feel like things are starting to crash down on you and they won't stop. And you just get so unhappy with the way you think, with where you are in life, and you just keep going because you think it's only going to get worse...
I guess the point of my ranting is to point out that I think I know how you feel.
But as you said. Try to keep in mind that it isn't forever. It will be bad, maybe really bad, but then something will make you smile. ANd slowly, or quickly, you'll get back to your real self.
And if you need to talk to someone and just need to talk, to let it out, someplace you feel you won't be judged... I'm always here by e-mail or instant message. Even if you just need to yell at someone, get out the anger at the world around you. I'm here. Maybe you don't want anyone. But I know it helps me to try to vent out my emotions one way or another. It's the third party that comes in that makes that difficult.
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And the not recognizing until your in it makes perfect sense to me. I was in that kinda limbo stage for a good couple months. And down deeper a couple days. IT sounds silly because you kinda know that you're being silly, things aren't this bad...but it doesn't matter, because everything just kinda feels surreal. It's like you're just goign through the motions...but at the same time you feel like things are starting to crash down on you and they won't stop. And you just get so unhappy with the way you think, with where you are in life, and you just keep going because you think it's only going to get worse...
I guess the point of my ranting is to point out that I think I know how you feel.
But as you said. Try to keep in mind that it isn't forever. It will be bad, maybe really bad, but then something will make you smile. ANd slowly, or quickly, you'll get back to your real self.
And if you need to talk to someone and just need to talk, to let it out, someplace you feel you won't be judged... I'm always here by e-mail or instant message. Even if you just need to yell at someone, get out the anger at the world around you. I'm here. Maybe you don't want anyone. But I know it helps me to try to vent out my emotions one way or another. It's the third party that comes in that makes that difficult.