ODC Larp

Jun. 16th, 2014 08:49 pm
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My, haven't I been gone forever...

I posted this earlier on FB :

ODC: Most awesome moment - Jupiter's Ire during a giant thunderstorm. Least awesome, horrendous abdo-cramps and back pain most of the weekend so felt even more useless and impotent than usual. I 'get' ODC as a game, and I love it as a game, I love the atmosphere and Rome, and announcing in the arena and the awesome, but I can't escape the feeling I'm just not good enough for it

So here's 2500 words of thinking



Feb. 9th, 2012 11:57 am
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The things you learn - Gatiss used to write (bad) erotic novels. Or did everyone already know that? *snorts* I am now utterly convinced he's somewhere out there, tacitly approving of slashfic and maybe even writing it.... All those anon responses to kink memes.....

*THIS* Is not something you should read at work and involves man/man sexxings.

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Welcome to my life in 2012.

In good news, I passed my progression for the PhD with room to spare, so I'm set to continue for what looks like another 2-3 years.

In less good news, as I feared, they decided I wasn't to do the ethics teaching at GEM anymore, which was a big loss of income, but the counter to that is Keele giving me some more teaching to do, which has just about counterbalanced it in terms of paying my fees for this year, but not in terms of having anything to spend.

It's still a lot of work I have to do for no tangible financial benefit, and it is a proper struggle to keep body and soul together. I am spending more than I have coming in, only through generosity am I feeding myself and the kitties.  I'm not leading an adventurous life, or squandering money - 700 quid a month goes nowhere when half is taken up by rent, and with travel costs, council tax and utility bills taking up 300 more.... !  Having to plan a month's money down to the last £1 and having nothing (often LESS than nothing) in reserve is grinding.

To try and cope with the - work on this here, work on that there, work on something else while occasionally being too skint to actually get to work/the uni /pay the gas bill and while you are at it forget that trip to see friends/go to larp you were planning - I have to do, I am endeavoring to make time for some creative stuff as I know full well that not doing so makes me miserable. I'm not actively 'depressed' per se right now, but my mood is persistently low when there's nothing like creativity and inspiration going on, which makes it easy to trigger a downturn.
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What an angry lot we are. Every day, we are angry. Sometimes that’s outrage, sometimes its anger, sometimes it’s just a little grumble. But there’s no doubt about it, we are an angry lot.

Read more... )

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Come November, some things in my life are likely to change. How severe and dramatic a change that is going to be, I don't yet know

How did we get here? )

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Because I am trying to do more writing things, here's some stuff .  Three excerpts from last years Nano, and a bit I wrote when someone hypothesised James Bond was a Time Lord. Don't be mean.


Excerpt 1 )

Excerpt 2 )

Excerpt 3 )

Challenge )
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I made a choice. I chose to take a risk and move in pursuit of a dream, and hope that by application and luck I’d make it work. 

 Nearly two years on, where am I ? 

Read more... )


Feb. 20th, 2011 12:01 pm
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I've not been about much recently... life is going through one of those difficult patches at the moment, and lots of things look pretty bleak.

One of the things I have been doing of late is trying to explain to people why depression is such a bastard.  However, if you haven't been there it is very difficult to explain.  My job involves teaching and working with medical students, and to me its important they try and empathise as much as they can with people who are very different to them.

Some time ago, I was introduced to the 'spoon theory'.   You can read it in full here  http://butyoudontlooksick.com/navigation/BYDLS-TheSpoonTheory.pdf and it provides a wonderful metaphor for living with illness.  It was written by someone with a long standing physical condition, Lupus, but anyone who has struggled with mental illness of any form will recognise their own condition in there as well.

Let me briefly try and encapsulate what the Spoon theory is about - its about that for people living with any long standing illness, life is a constant process of decision making. Every action, small and large, uses up part of the physical energy and mental willpower you have for the day.  The spoons in the story represent that energy and willpower.  Each thing you do uses up one of those spoons and when you have a chronic illness... you have less spoons to play with. Once they are gone, they are gone. I urge you to read it, the full story works better than any summary I could give.

Depression and the Spoon theory )

Sam xxxx

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In my head the first decade of the third millenium shall be the decade of apathetic winge-ery. It largely seemed full of a society forgetting how to do anything but panic or complain about things. Or maybe its always been like that and I'm just too wrapped up in my own personal winge-ery to notice.  There were one or two points at which people tried, en masse, to actually CHANGE things - but none of that worked out, poor sods. Instead, a government equally unsure of how to actually DO anything simply legislated to stop people gathering in such inconvenient ways.

Read more... )
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Every six months or so I dip my toes back into the world of LJ, and fandom.

Life trundles on. I still have a man, and a job - although the PhD is looking a little shaky on funding grounds at the moment. :( Its a shame, I took a risk coming here and it looks like it may not work out after all.

I think there must be a fanfic shaped gap in my life at the moment.... I blame doing NaNoWriMo for the first time this year, all that splurging thousands of words (non fannish, technically)  without the delightful option of other people (hopefully) enjoying it too....

It has been a while though, since I did the fanfic thang.

Hello again to my friends here, hopefully I'll stick around longer this time.
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Title: Something close

Rating: PG-13 
Pairing: James/Richard
Summary: Something unsaid on the Death Road.
Word Count: 3,200
Warnings: No sex, sorry. Self-beta.
Disclaimer: These are characters that happen to have the same names as real people. I don’t know anything about the private lives of those real people, I’m making it all up. Honest.

If you don't know what TG is.......  )


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Funny how that happens... you don't log on for ages and then you don't know how to come back because theres sooooo much fanfic that hasn't been read and can I even write/vid/ randomly comment anymore? I blame the shortage of Dr Who last year....

Life trundles on... I have a fantastic job as a PBL facilitator, I love it, but I am soooo poor. I've been doing some ethics lecturing as well (LOVE IIT!) and eventually they'll pay me :)

PhD studies are trotting along okay at the moment as well. I'm a long way from the people I care about though *MISS YOU*.

I am in a happy relationship with a lovely man, (although Liverpool is too far away!), we are good for each other, share many of the same peculiarities, and many differences. Perhaps I spend a lot of time talking to him, rather than writing and reading random things these days.

But with the coming of spring, I feel the need to be involved with creative things , this seems as good a place as any to start again.
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Pairing : Ja/R Drabble – 100 words – Rated 12 maybe
Disclaimer: This isn't real and it never happened, because all I did was borrow some names and some personalities, and make some pretend things out of them.

Restraint )

Prompt: CATNIP
Pairing : OT3 Drabble – 100 words – Rated Utterly Inoffensive !
Disclaimer: This isn't real and it never happened, because all I did was borrow some names and some personalities, and make some pretend things out of them.

catnip )

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It has been MONTHS since I wrote a creative word. Months.

That old depression hospitalised all my muses and now they're feeling a bit better I could do with something to encourage them back to health.

So, if you are out there and reading this, and you don't mind helping me poke my muse, can you throw me some drabble prompts? 

I'd like a suggested pairing, and a single word, I figure it will tempt me to put fingers to keyboard....

*hugs to all*
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Hiya all,

here I am in Stoke on Trent :)

I seem to be settling into the house well, it's nice having all the extra space and I am even motivated to keep it tidy. Lots of people I'm missing at the moment, M in particular (rediculous timing there, but I ask myself the question - would either of us have made the move if I HADN'T been about to leave the city?)  But G,F, E, I and countless others from the AJ are not far from my mind.

Have started the new Job in Derby , silly commute really but I am enjoying working with students again, the staff have all been welcoming and the job is wonderfully interesting, so vastly, vastly better than the PCT.

Will hopefully be registering at keele on the 28th. I say hopefully because my buggering previous landlord won't give me any of the deposit back, meaning I don't have the money to pay my fees, and HB haven't got back to me yet so paying the rent is about to become an issue... however, I don't feel at the moment that I can't handle the problems that may arise so all is good.

I've been posting odd updates oon my FB that cast me in the mold of pioneering space commander of the Stoke Mission. It amuses me greatly and apparently a few others as well....

Below for your edification I've listed them all so far. It should be reasonably simple to deduct my meanings from the metaphors :) 


This is Stoke Mission calling, are you receiving me, over?  September 1 at 11:16am

Stoke Mission update: have run out of biscuits but have achieved wonders with a co-ax cable. Am off to feed ship's cats and check out communications link to sleeping quarters.
September 1 at 9:27pm

status report from Stoke Mission: Have set up secondary communications device in the second living module, and connection from the sleeping quarters is good. Voice only communications system still isn't working though.
September 2 at 7:20pm

Stoke Mission status update: we may have a problem with the former mission control, but it's great to know you are with me out there Liverpool, Wirral, Newport, Birmingham and Sussex. Feeling much brighter now.
September 3 at 7:57pm

Stoke Mission Update: the Living module is really quite organised now.... but the mission commander has developed a disturbing craving for Yorkshire pud. Somewhat of a problem as I still don't have an actual oven unit in the galley.
September 6 at 12:52pm

Stoke mission Report: no local outposts have supplies of Aunt Bessie's and currently don't have the fuel to venture further afield. However, have found a source of Mountain Dew.
September 6 at 1:40pm

waiting for the communications engineer to dock. Could be any time.......
September 7 at 8:55am

Stoke Mission Module now has wired telecommunications.
September 7 at 9:52am

Stoke Mission Commander's log 7/9/09 - Have spent the afternoon exploring a series of strange canals laid down by a previous civilisation.
September 7 at 6:18pm

Stoke Mission update: Alien Life Form has invaded the galley. Has been successfully removed without injury but will continue to monitor as its point of ingress has not been determined. Science officer reports alien likely to be vulnerable to NaCl.
September 7 at 9:23pm

The Stoke Mission's laptop is convinced it is not on line. Oliver, you are online, I can tell this for sure because WE ARE ONLINE. (Unless I am dreaming this status update, and the whole of FB is a virtual reality downloaded into my brain.)
September 11 at 7:31pm •

STOKE MISSION UPDATE: refrigeration unit functioning well, really nice to have cheese again. Alien life forms still seen occasionally in galley. Ships' cats learning judo.
September 14 at 6:51pm

Stoke Mission would like to report that due to problems with the Microsoft Space Network, communications may be a little flaky right now.
September 14 at 10:10pm

Stoke Mission ship's engineer is happy to report that the ancient tabletop frying device has not exploded the ship, and it is therefore theoretically possible to have bacon.
Sep 15 at 7:40pm

Stoke Mission Update: Commander's log - successful loan of vacuum cleaning device negotiated with Mother module. However, subsequent suction problems were traced to a large number of meal worms living inside dust receptacle. Offending bat food was identified and disposed of by Science officer. Suction now okay.
September 17.
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This week I had the two best days of work I believe it is possible to have if you are me and work for the primary care trust. There was I, training support for the pharmacy side IT for this Swine Flu hotline, with hitches and hang ups and all sorts, sorting out techie problems, developing ways of doing stuff, liaising left right and centre, and turning my hand to many different things.  11 hours Thursday, 10 yesterday, me, rocking at my job so the pharmacists can get on with theirs.

I'm not going to express any opinions on the merits or otherwise of the national pandemic flu service, because it would be somewhat inappropriate of me to do so on a public blog. Suffice to say, I do have opinions and if you know me you could possibly have a guess what they are.

Did, however find out that the place I was supposed to be moving to at the end of August has been let to someone else. The agents were very apologetic and annoyed at the landlord who hadn't bothered to tell them he'd let it.

Now I have to try and find a new place, in a different city, without any time off work, in the next 4 weeks. Good job I'm actually kinda confident in myself at the moment, really.

Elle: pretty much directed at you , but my leaving do is in the AJ on the 21st August, if you want to come along?

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I have been gone for ages it seems, I hope the people I know here are well.

In short I've been in a very severe depression for a while, brought on by being bullied at work... not logging on for a couple of days becomes weeks, then months, and before you know it you're wondering how to come back...

It's all going to be changing soon, I'm off to start a new part time job, and study PT for a PhD while I'm doing so. I'm going to be skinter than skint and living in Stoke on Trent but... Sometimes you just have to take the leap.
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Here's to new beginnings, second chances, and the sum of efforts!


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