Going through a bit of a bad patch

[metztlimoon]

normal service will be resumed as soon as possible
ie when:

My house stops being a mess
I stop being a mess
I stop being desperately angry at myself
The washing machine is fixed
I think I'm good at something useful
I stop wanting to break everything
I am secure that I am not going to become Jobless and homeless in a couple of months
I am not going mad
I am less afraid of being alone
I get over the fact I can never have the people that I love
When I stop thinking everyone thinks I'm pathetic
When I stop being intensely insecure and paranoid
When I get some sex more than once in a kind of regularish way
you know strike that. When I make love. one day.